Monday, November 15, 2010

Status Update

When I started this blog, I never expected it to be a source of support in a desperate time of need. Thank you. I'm grateful for the sweet comments, Tweets and e-mails over the past week - I can't even begin to tell you how much each one means to me. I promise to respond to everyone, but it is taking longer than expected. I can only get through one or two a day without breaking down.

That's precisely what's hard about this situation: I never know when I'm going to be left sobbing. I'll brush my teeth and let my mind wander. The next thing I know, my face is twisted in pain and tears are streaming down my cheeks.

And, let me tell you, it's been hard to keep myself distracted every minute of every day. I spent most of the weekend curled up in pajamas, clutching a cozy throw and sipping coffee. I've made it through countless crossword puzzles, read two books and learned the lyrics to a new C.D. When I ventured out, I wandered aimlessly throughout stores and purchased a bracelet I didn't need. I haven't been able to eat and have lost five pounds in the past week - not exactly the weight-loss kickoff I expected.

But, I am doing better. I just never thought I'd be this excited for the dawn of another work week and the salvation it brings.

21 comments:

  1. Im glad you are doing a bit better hunnie...it will take time:)
    Weekends in jammies are AOK with me:)

    *LOVE the scarf btw

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  2. Ohhhh sweetie...I am thinking of you all the time and I am glad you are doing a bit better. With time it will be easier, I promise. Sending hugs and kisses
    Muah

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  3. It will keep on geting better! In the meantime, take breaks, buy bracelets and do what you gotta do! *hugs*

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  4. Please take all the time you need to grieve, and trust that time will surely heal all your wounds.
    Sending LOVE and BIG BEAR HUGS your way sweetie

    Kisses
    J
    xoxo

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  5. you could buy yourself those pretty things? :) yes, i'm with jemina...sending a huge bear hug your way!

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  6. one day at a time....one day at a time....

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  7. Keep it going darlin'! Each day you make it through is another day towards your mind's freedom. You got it :)

    xo Lynzy

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  8. Hang in there. Let time slip by and you'll start feeling better. And remember how many people care about you.

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  9. I hope things continue getting better, and the bracelet is gorgeous. Anything that helps you feel better, you need, so don't feel guilty about it.

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  10. Hang in there- time heals all wounds. It will take some time but you will find your happiness again ;)

    xo Carlina

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  11. I know it is hard and you feel like your whole world is changing. You just need to know that all this means that something absolutely wonderful coming your way. There is a light at the end of your tunnel. :)

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  12. awww hun hang in there!

    stop by my blog and answer three quick questions on my latest post if you get a chance, maybe keep you distracted for a minute or two :)

    xoxo, jaz
    fashionstatement101.blogspot.com

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  13. Oh Jessica, I'm so sorry you're going through all this. I totally know how hard it is..I used to randomly cry in class or walking home. I was so unpredictable after my ex and I broke up. It will take some time but things will get better. I hope that happiness finds you soon! Until then, find faux-happiness in ice cream : ) Sending good thoughts your way!

    -Samantha
    http://sincerelysamantha.com

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  14. You sound a lot like me. When I was going through a difficult time recently, I could not eat or sleep. Also, lost 5 pounds in a week. It's always nice to lose a few but that wasn't the way I wanted to do it exactly. Thinking about you and hoping you will feel better soon.

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  15. I'm so sorry, just be gentle and good to yourself...it takes time (I remember not eating well the first week of a bad breakup too, not the weight loss approach I wanted). Distractions are the best thing - hang in there!

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  16. Shopping/wandering aimlessly through stores and malls always helps keep my mind occupied and clear. I hope you're feeling better. Time will help, for sure. We're all here!

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  17. Hang in there, ok? I know people will say to distract yourself, and you should sometimes, but at the same time you have to go through all this to be able to move on. Not the most uplifting advice but it's the truth and you WILL get through it!

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  18. Weekends in jammies are totally acceptable! I promise you will feel better with time :)

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  19. Great pieces. And yea...its going to take time so just keep lounging around on weekend and indulging in fun stuff to help you feel better! I'm sure it will all be okay soon, maybe not as soon as you'd like but pretty soon. *sends happy thoughts*
    http://aclosetfashionista.blogspot.com/

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  20. Good to know you are doing better, hang in there and trust in yourself that you are doing the right thing.

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